Dharma Curious

Existential cocktease is one of the best phrases ever coined, and exactly the phrase I have needed for years to explain many of my dreams. I don’t fall in love. Like, I’ve dated, and had a few relationships, but I’ve never really connected with a person in a romantic way. I love my family deeply, in a non romantic way, so I know I’m capable. But I just have never had that with a romantic partner.

But I routinely do in dreams. Several times a year, I’ll have a dream where I fall deeply in love someone. And then I wake up, and I’m depressed for days thinking about it. It’s an existential cocktease.

Thank you for giving me the language to describe that.

What’s the hardest part of being out as trans, other than the obvious transphobes? The subtle stuff most people don’t think about, I mean.