Haven’t had the best time these past three years and especially not this year where everything seemed to happen all at once. My 2026 is like a plot for a terribly written soap opera. Lost my beloved company, lost both my parents and got pre-stage breast cancer which means I lost my breast too. Lol.
I don’t even know if i have the right to feel anything about it because companies go under everyday in this economy, I’m not special in that regard and I still have clients and work.
Can’t grieve my parents because they are both still alive and I just made the decision to cut them out, but it’s learning all these new things about them that makes everything so much worse than it already was. How do you grieve a parent who’s still alive and who never loved you because they don’t have the capacity to love?
And with the breast, I can’t really react to that either because it was pre-stage, not cancer yet and they cut off my breast before it could get worse, so no kemo for me. How do you take ownership over an illness you never had, but it still cost you a body part?
I don’t fucking know, lol.
I don’t know anything. I just know that from June to August some things happened and I’m not the same person anymore, neither physically nor mentally.
It’ll be fine, though! It’s just one of those bumps on the road where there isnt really much of a point to anything other than letting go and stop trying to fix things and people who don’t want to be fixed. 🤷♀️
Fix yourself instead.
Hugs for you and I deeply hope your life is better written than mine xD
No worries. Thanks for taking the time to reply. Hope life has been treating you well and if not hope that things will improve :-)
Thank you and likewise!
Haven’t had the best time these past three years and especially not this year where everything seemed to happen all at once. My 2026 is like a plot for a terribly written soap opera. Lost my beloved company, lost both my parents and got pre-stage breast cancer which means I lost my breast too. Lol.
I don’t even know if i have the right to feel anything about it because companies go under everyday in this economy, I’m not special in that regard and I still have clients and work.
Can’t grieve my parents because they are both still alive and I just made the decision to cut them out, but it’s learning all these new things about them that makes everything so much worse than it already was. How do you grieve a parent who’s still alive and who never loved you because they don’t have the capacity to love?
And with the breast, I can’t really react to that either because it was pre-stage, not cancer yet and they cut off my breast before it could get worse, so no kemo for me. How do you take ownership over an illness you never had, but it still cost you a body part?
I don’t fucking know, lol.
I don’t know anything. I just know that from June to August some things happened and I’m not the same person anymore, neither physically nor mentally.
It’ll be fine, though! It’s just one of those bumps on the road where there isnt really much of a point to anything other than letting go and stop trying to fix things and people who don’t want to be fixed. 🤷♀️
Fix yourself instead.
Hugs for you and I deeply hope your life is better written than mine xD